Determination

For two months, I've been a trainee for a call center. Everyday is a struggle. People pushing you to your limits. One simple mistake then you're out of the program. When I finally became a regular employee, I thought all of my hardships are over but it didn't end at that point. I was promoted to a higher position and the anxiety and fear came back. A higher position in this hell hole means that you'll be back to training again. I don't know how to cope with this situation I am right now. I'm back at war fighting over a seat on this job. I will not stop until the bitter end! I got this far so there's no turning back. I'll just rise to their expectation. Another challenge.

Yours truly, Ricki.

Depressed

Moving out isn't easy but it's much more suitable than to be treated like crap at home. Gotta learn how to fully live independent after a full pay next month.  I regret signing the papers to release the amount of cash my grandpa saved up for me in my bank account. My father gave me the papers to sign the withdrawal since I'm no longer studying. Crap. I should have got that load of cash and run away. Now all I can rely on is my work and my boyfriend. I'm battling whether to stick with my plan or suck up my pride and be on a leash again. Freedom is such a thin line.

Yours truly, Ricki.